Let me start this off by laying 100% of blame on myself. Not my wife and family. Not my friends. Not my workplace.
I have something to admit. I avoid looking in mirrors. I don't like who's looking back at me. He has my face, but not the body that I remember. It's tough for me to admit this....what with being raised with the stigma of "blokes don't show feelings".
I'm left asking myself, "Where did all this extra weight come from?". It's like it just appeared overnight. I know it didn't....but I've been avoiding my own reflection for so long that that's how it seems.
My clothing size has been gradually getting bigger and bigger and in all honesty, more and more uncomfortable and blander in colour. Colours range from black to grey to dark blue. Trying to blend in and hopefully not be noticed.
For the last month I've been through a bit of a diet change with a want to lose weight by my next birthday (June 22). My diet hasn't changed by much. I'm actually having breakfast in the morning like oats with nuts and died fruits, instead of the regular cup of coffee and a cigarette (they're next on my list). Increasing vegetables and swapping lunch from something quick and easy from the nearest shop to a salad with chicken or some other protein.
I'm actually starting to see results from those little changes.
I have to admit though, there are days where I'm left feeling "Hangry", as my daughter puts it, and some days I'm craving for something deep fried and smothered in chocolate.
My son had his 11th birthday on Saturday and of course there was a big selection of not so healthy food, which I indulged in (moderately). Apparently having a "cheat meal" or "cheat day" is allowed and is encouraged according to the latest study printed in the Journal of Consumer Phychology. "These meals or days should be planned and monitored." Otherwise eating a Tim Tam or 2 turns in to eating the whole packet and you're left wondering where the packet went.
But I must say though, I've dropped from 146 kgs (yes it hurt to admit that) to 138 in 3 weeks. Not huge numbers, but a loss is a loss right? As a personal preference, I'd rather gradually lose the weight than pull big numbers week in week out. I'm also avoiding the scales. Only getting on them every couple of weeks.
I'm currently a 6XL. My goal is to be back to 2XL by June and a lot healthier.